adventures in and around the city
There’s nothing quite like a gooey chocolate cake and a mug of tea to make the world seem like a better place.
Like so many women these days I’m someone who suffers with anxiety, and although this is usually a mild shadow that follows me around like an imaginary friend or a faithful dog, it can sometimes blow up into a big hurricane circling around my head.
Anxiety and worry is something that really blights my enjoyment of things. It stops me from feeling joy in the world because I’m too damn worried about what people think of me, regretting past mistakes, or whether I’m likely to get a nasty disease
and die young!
The thing is that none of those things are in my control, and although I’m fully aware of that and the irrationality of it all, it’s like the obsessive thoughts take over and I find myself in a spiral of negativity.
Anxiety doesn’t stop me from doing things anymore which is great, but the mistake I, and probably millions of other women like me make, is that because it doesn’t consume me it becomes normalised behaviour, and I think it’s just par for the course of living in today’s world.
There is light at the end of the tunnel
Over the past year I have experienced longer and longer breaks from the endless worry that’s been weighing me down, and only just come to realise that it’s totally within my power to boot it out for good!
There are many formal techniques and strategies for overcoming anxiety which range from medication (which in my opinion, should always be a last resort), to Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, Neuro- Linguistic Programming and mindfulness to name but a few. There are also the more informal therapies such as exercise, hypnotherapy, acupuncture, and meditation.
What’s helped me realise that anxiety doesn’t need to be a firm fixture and fitting in my mind is a mixture of yoga, meditation, and cycling (my trusty velo has a lot to offer!) But I’ve realised to give it the final heave-ho I might need some help to recognise how these thought patterns materialise, and how to bat them straight back out of the park.
So after a Sunday of worrying about work and things that are completely out of my control, i’ve made a really positive decision to move things forward. I’m going to take the steps needed to book myself onto a course and wave goodbye to the devil on my shoulder!
Whilst I was in the thick of the doom and gloom though, this cake gave me the momentary hug I needed.